Why I Am a Bad Wife

As I sat through my differential equations class this past week I had a great revelation from God. I heard him say this- "Let God be God, and let man be man." It hit me very hard. It showed me that the great deal of stress that has completely ruined me lately is because of this fact, I am trying to do more than I have grace to do. Not in terms of works, but in terms of relationship. I am trying to do the things in my life that God has promised to do and is doing. I am not playing my role in my walk with God very well because I am more worried about making sure God's parts getting done. I have such a lack of trust!

God promises that he will lead my life, that he will direct my path. He has a plan and a purpose for me. He will provide for me and deliver me. He will do more than I can ask or think to ask. He will work all things together for His good. I doubt all these things at times in my life, especially in times when I can't see what is going on and I don't have direction. I don't trust Him to lead me. I always need to know exactly what is going on so then I can trust. Does trust really require understanding though? I think not. Yet that is always what I require of Him. Is that really faith.

I think of it like a wife. One thing I really struggle with is when a wife is controlling. I see how much blessing can be stolen from a husband when a wife will not trust him to lead, trust him to play his role. On the opposite even if things look bad, a man can be so blessed and a woman can be at piece if the wife will simply affirm the husband and say that she trusts him and his plan and that she will submit and not try to control. I don't want a wife that is always battling me for control. I want a wife that will trust me as I follow God. I want a wife that will allow me to play my role without doubting me all the time. I want a wife that can let go of control so that she can focus in on her role. No person in a marriage can play both parts, and that's why trust is so huge in a relationship, you have to submit, surrender, and let each part person play their part.

I realize that this is what I've been doing with God. With me being a piece of His bride, I have been robbing blessing and honor from Him by not trusting Him with His plan. Because I don't understand His plan, I feel like I need to take the reign and try to do some of His parts by myself. When I do that I feel so overwhelmed because I was never made to do these things. I want to be a good wife for God, that is playing my part and blessing Him.

This revelation has led to a new rush of piece and joy in my life. I feel more focused. I have direction on the things I am called to do. I just want to play the part that I am called to and trust Him to do His part in this marriage. He will not fail. Men: Be men, by letting God be God.