There are times in your life where the Lord looks upon you and chooses to shower you with specific blessings that are needed at a particular time in your life. These seasons usually come after seasons of trial, come when you least expect it, and come after many seasons prior of looking and expecting for this very thing to come. It is almost never arrives in the time we would want or think, and it almost never comes in the package or from the place where we would expect it to be from, yet we do always seem to know that these specific promises from God are out there, as we can only fight the fight of faith and rest and wait for the timing of the Lord to align His purposes with our desires so that He can pour out on His child the very thing He longs to give him, but in the way and time that is most healthy and beneficial to His desires and plan.
This is the season I am in. I of course am blessed beyond measure already, yet many past seasons have had me searching, and coming up empty as the desires of my heart have yet to be manifest into my life. This season has been one of deep healing, restoration, revival, resurrection, so many works of God being done in my life all at once. Obtaining things promised from long ago is an amazing thing, and when it hits you finally, you almost don’t even know what to do. Glory rises in your heart and you want it to be passed to the Father in praise, yet the thankfulness can hardly be expressed because the weight of it seems too great, and simple words don’t seem to fully express the goodness that you begin to see in the plan of God. Sometimes all I can say is simply thank you God, and I suppose that truly is enough. There are so many regrets, times of doubting God and His faithfulness, doubting the things He promised could truly be true, that what He said He had for me really might be as amazing as He said it would be, and even better than promised. Even more true is His power to bring this thing about in a way that is also powerful and beautiful. Let God be true and every man a liar, especially my doubting mind.
He loves us so much, I’m glad that this is the overwhelming theme of my heart from these past few months. He always had a plan, He always looked upon my situation intently, cringing as I went through fire, yet hopefully looking upon as He knew what would happen as I came out of it. He has never doubted what He would make me to be. He has never doubted the plans He had for my life being the absolute best. He never worried that maybe He wouldn’t be able to get this work done. He led me out of Egypt with a mighty hand. He led me through dessert seasons, and at last a small glimpse of promise land in my life seems to be here. Truly this is the love of the Father. Yes He is the only wise one.
Yet still more change comes, more breaking and pain, but also more freedom and life. Surely I won’t doubt again, the faithfulness of my God, the love He has for me, His power in bringing about His plan. His goodness should trump any trial that lies ahead. If only I could stay at this place of faith. Perfect love, cast out my fear. Perfect Father, show me Your perfect love.
As for now I will stay in today. I will enjoy the blessing that He has thrust into my life, more amazing than I ever hoped for. I will not fear the chance of losing it tomorrow. He gives, He takes away, still Lord, blessed be Your name. I thank you for what You’ve given me in this life, and more importantly how You used the blessings of this season to heal me and bring hope into my heart. You have used this to form me into the man I have always been created to be. Look upon Your work Father, and be pleased in what You have done. Hear the cry of a thankful heart as it glorifies You for the mighty works of Your hands and the passionate love of Your heart.
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